Redefining You

For the longest time, I have been dreaming of that one person who would sweep me off my feet and take me for who I am and for who I am not. Someone who would be able to tolerate me. Someone who would love me for simply being me. Someone I could connect with on various levels.

And then you came. It was perfect timing combined with some sort of attraction. No questions were asked. No labels were given (even if I felt that it was necessary). Mutual half-baked attempts at sweetness ensued. Both struggling, we continued on. You claimed me as yours. I shivered at the thought of being someone's boy. I gave us a chance.

I recently solved our puzzle - the forecast is less than ideal.

I am sorry that I let things get this far. I am sorry that I cannot give you what you expect of me. I am sorry I cannot love you the way you would like me to. I am sorry I may not be who you deserve.

I have always believed that love is not the bottomline of a person's likes and dislikes. It is defined, more so, by the connection that two people have - something that is beyond sex, similarities and physical attraction. Chemistry, is how some people would call it. I am afraid that this is what is missing - I may be beyond you and you may be beyond me too.

I pray for strength to let you know all of this. I wish for wisdom to figure out if this is indeed the right thing to do. I hope for a happy ending just the same.