Hon

You told me you loved me. I was thrilled. I never knew that you'd finally get there but you did. I thought you were just joking but you were not. I thanked the heavens for a nearly-perfect life, finally.

Ours was an imperfectly perfect relationship that exemplified how difficult living together really is. We would have constant disagreements over the basic things. We disagreed over catsup. We fought over the remote. We had discussions over toothpaste. We quarreled over computer access. We disliked each other's music. You were a trying hard Japanese for crying out loud! We got through these and needless to say, we stayed on. On hindsight, it was actually fun disagreeing with you.

The time I spent with you still remains as one of the best times I have ever had. Your first Christmas gift made me cry and laugh at the same time. I still remember how magical our first New Year was. Watching fireworks while sipping cheap red wine from plastic cups and nibbling on squid balls by the bay is still the sweetest memory I hold of you. A perfect Valentine's date that ended with "taho" still makes me grin. Our birthday spaghetti dates have become a personal tradition. Memories of late night walks still makes me giggle.

Looking back, it really does not matter that things turned sour between us. We both got tired of the arrangement and we began to exhibit signs of fatigue. Painful disagreements eventually led to short-lived break ups. Short-lived break ups became longer. Our story recently ended with pizza, pasta, coffee and a movie. I think we had a good run. 

Some people claim that we can never stop loving someone we loved before - we only love them less. I guess this also holds true for us. I am certain that both of us may never find ourselves together again but this does not change the fact that once, when we were both young and in love, we became each other's world. 

Four years ago, you finally said that you loved me. Had we not decided to call it off, it would have been our fourth and you would have been my last. 

Hon, thank you for loving me then and for letting me love you the way I did.