Day 9: Beautiful Nightmare

I found myself smiling when you popped on my screen. I have been waiting for this since last night. 

"Wala ko internet connection, dito pa ko sa province..."

Suddenly, all the frustrations I had disappeared into thin air. It was good to "see" you again. I was not able to control myself when I blurted,

"Langya, namiss kita..."

I can't believe I just said that. 

"Na-miss din kita..."

I giggled. We started talking. It seemed like you have already read my posts before you sent a message my way. I, on the other hand, updated you on what I have been doing. You seemed a bit tense - pissed even. 

"Inaaway mo ba ko?", you asked.

Silence. I could not reveal what I really felt. I did not want to appear weak. 

"Medyo..."

Where did that come from?

"Stupid Tristan... just stupid.", I whispered.

"Pwede wag muna away?", you requested.

Silence.

"Uhmm.. okay..."

My trainer told me that it takes twenty one days to make a habit. Recently, I realized that my new habit only took around seven days to get used to. I'm not really sure if this going anywhere but I am enjoying the ride so far. In fact, I am enjoying it so much that I'm getting a dedicated line tomorrow.

P.S. I just heard Beyonce's new single (?) and I think this best describes what I feel so far.

Beautiful Nightmare (FuLL) - Beyonce

every night I rush to my bed 

with hopes that maybe I’ll get a chance to see you 

when i close my eyes 

i’m goin outta my head 

lost in a fairytale 

can you hold my hands and be my guide 

clouds filled with stars cover your skies 

and i hope it rains 

you’re the perfect lullaby 

what kinda dream am is this 

you can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 

either way i, don't wanna wake up from you 

sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 

somebody pinch me, your loves to good to be true 

my guilty pleasure i ain't goin no where 

baby long as you're here 

i’ll be floating on air cause you're my 

you can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 

either way i, don't wanna wake up from you 

i mention you when i say my prayers 

i wrap you around around all of my thoughts 

boy you my temporary high 

i wish that when i wake up you’re there 

so wrap your arms around me for real 

and tell me you’ll stay by side 

clouds filled with stars cover your skies 

and i hope it rains 

you’re the perfect lullaby 

what kinda dream am is this 

you can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 

either way i, don't wanna wake up from you 

sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 

somebody pinch me, your loves to good to be true 

my guilty pleasure i ain't goin no where 

baby long as you're here 

i’ll be floating on air cause you're my 

you can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 

either way i, don't wanna wake up from you 

tattoo your name across my heart 

so it will remain 

not even death can make us part 

what kind of dream is this?! 

you can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 

either way i, don't wanna wake up from you 

sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 

somebody pinch me, your loves to good to be true 

my guilty pleasure i ain't goin no where 

baby long as you're here 

i’ll be floating on air cause you're my 

you can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 

either way i, don't wanna wake up from you