Farewell Sex

We met a few months ago. I even blogged about you at one point. 

We first spoke on the phone. Even then, I was already intimidated by you. So intimidated in fact that I tried to catch up. You grew up in the States, now working in Manila, while I am homegrown. I hate to admit it but, on hindsight, I was attracted to you and your "bad boy" image (oh yes, I go for the bad boys). You hated my lifestyle but you got over it. We eventually decided to meet up. 

"Tristan, have you had dinner yet?"

"No, not yet. I don't plan to."

"Diet?"

"Yeah..."

"I'm bringing dessert anyway..."

My perverted mind took over. Dessert is fine. I laughed.

"Hi!", you greeted me with a smile.

"Uy, how are you?", I greeted back, grinning.

"I brought dessert.", you said as you handed me a box of cake.

"Perfect, thanks."

That night, you and I talked. 

"Tristan, do you like me?", you confidently asked.

I smiled.

"Why do you ask?"

"I just wanna know...", you explained.

"Yeah, I do."

"I don't want you to see other guys."

"And why is that?", I asked.

"If I'm gonna be with you, you can't."

"What made you think I'd go for you?", I asked.

"Ayaw mo ba?", you clarified.

"I'm not ready for something serious."

"Oh, okay..."

That night, we slept on the same bed. Nothing happened. I woke up a virgin.

"Hi Tristan!", you texted again.

"Uy! Musta?"

"My body aches. Where are you?"

"Condo...", I replied.

"Is it okay if I drop by?"

I was confused. I have not seen him since. Why now?

"Sure. You still know the place, right?"

"Yeah. I'll be there in 15 minutes."

"What?", I panicked.

He looked much leaner when I saw him outside my door, grinning. Shaved head, nice arms, same tattoo. 

"Musta Tristan?"

I smiled. 

"What's going on?"

"I just wanted to find out what I missed.", you explained.

"I know what you mean.", I said as I laughed.

We finally decided to get it on.

"Was it all you ever imagined?", I asked, laughing.

"Yeah, it was worth the wait.", you smiled.

"Gago ka kasi..."

"Ikaw kaya... you didn't want me then!"

"Because you were too imposing.", I explained.

"I still like you. Do you still like me now?", you asked.

I smiled.

"I guess this will never work, right?", you asked.

"I'm sorry , I'm leaving."

"And besides, I was just curious about you.",  I whispered as I crossed you off my list.