Goodbye, For Now

Last night, I asked you to take a stand. Tonight, you finally did.

"Hi, kamusta? San ka?", you asked.



"Dito lang, Starbucks. I did not want to go home yet."


"Nag-usap na kami...", you explained.

I held my breath.

"And?", I asked.


"We're gonna try and make it work...", you finally uttered.

I was speechless. My head was spinning. My heart, breaking.

"It's okay. I understand.", I quickly replied.

I felt my eyes water.

"This is the reason why I did not want to go home...", I explained.


"At least pag nasa labas ako, I cannot cry..."

I heard you sigh. I felt your pain.

"Ang hirap no?", I asked.


"Yeah...", was all you were able to muster.


"We have to do this...", I explained.


"But promise me one thing...", I continued.


"Yes, yun ang una kong gagawin."

I took a deep breath.

"So I guess this is goodbye?", you asked.


"Is that what you want?"

Silence. I knew the answer to my question.

"Goodbye Tristan..."

I was silent.

"Goodbye...", I whispered.


"Please ibaba mo na ang phone...", you pleaded.

I carefully listened to your breathing, for the last time.

"Please....", you begged.


"I love you Jay Vee.", I finally said as I hung up.

Blogger's Note: I will be leaving the country very soon, for good. The new me will start a new life in a new land. Lahat bago, pati ako.