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Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Postscripts

Here's the story. I got my heart broken again and it hurts like hell. But things will be different this time as I will spare everyone from the messy details.

It can be frustrating that, after a failed attempt at love, we often find ourselves thinking how we could have done things differently. Had someone said something first, would things have turned out the way they did? Had someone kept mum, would love have triumphed over insecurity? Had we believed in what we had, would we be more happy? I realized tonight that the best way to move forward is to just accept the fact that things do happen for a reason.

I think that I may have finally learned my lessons. After all, I have fallen in this trap several times over so I should already know how this works. So tonight, I resolve to look past the pain, hatred, disappointment and frustration of my heartbreak. I am certain that the slightest memory of him can and will still hurt from time to time but I know that this too shall pass, in God's own time. Sadness may still linger but again I know that this is but an integral part of the healing process. Forgiveness is necessary and happiness, much like falling in love, is a choice.

To you, I loved you then and I love you still but I have accepted our fate. I promise to work at being happy for you. I am letting you go for the last time.

And to you, he has become a better person because of you and for that, I am grateful but I so hate you these days. Nevertheless, you are still one lucky bastard to know his secret; keep it safe.

And for me, an oh-so-gay song, my guilty pleasure.


Believe - Cher

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Herbs D. said...

know what's gayer? Life after love by Cher! its like the ultimate gay song evar.

this question has been running my mind rin kanina..if i did this would i be in bed right now with him or ...yung mga ganun ba? the question is hypothetical of course.

:) you can get through this, sweetie. alam kong kaya mo yan!
xoxo. much love and support from baby herbs.

Herbs D. said...

p.s. nagbago ang header...i know what this means na.

ENTONGALON said...

one of the best posts, but please, cher?

anyway, our boat is getting a little crowded. where have all the happy people gone?

Turismoboi said...

i do hope u learned ur lesson na nga!

MkSurf8 said...

smile. party till u drop. ilang days na lang naman e. mahahanap mo rin sya sa DC. ;-)

Anonymous said...

kakayanin mo yan kaibigan.
the sea holds a lot of fishes and there will be more fishes to come.

good luck on your next catch! :)

ash

wanderingcommuter said...

p*7%4T67w34!!

napamura talaga ako sa kanta ah, momentum na eh!

Tristan Tan said...

@Herbs thanks Herbs. :)

@Entongalon I had to make it happy para hindi naman emo no! Go Cher! LOL.

@Turismoboi yeah.:)

@MkSurf8 but will you still please mess my garden before I leave? *wink* LOL.

@Ash :)

@WanderingCommuter para maiba naman panira ng moment, d ba? hahaha.

:: cb :: said...

it's good that you're letting go. tama sila. paalis ka na naman. at least wala ka nang dalang baggage (aside from ur physical ones, at least.)

Tristan Tan said...

@CB that would be one less baggage to carry. now, let me throw up again. :)