It was a warm night and the city lights lit the otherwise gloomy streets. The wind barely blew and I was perspiring a little. There were very few people on streets - all of them had their own businesses to attend to.
I felt happy.
You were someone I considered special. You made me laugh then, giggle even. Your smile remains magical and your eyes still hold a story of sadness - something you never admit to. I liked you since the first time we met- I have sensed something good in you and I even made sure that you were aware of it before we parted ways. But things never turned out the way we want them to - everything then was complicated.
If only they were not.
The night we chose to walk home was all about us. No one else seemed to matter (at least for me). Your voice calmed me down and your presence made me feel safe. All the problems that have been bugging me slowly faded away. I felt secure. I felt that what was important is that you were there with me, again.
I tried to stop the time.
I secretly hoped that we'd get ourselves lost in the city, if only to extend the time I could spend with you. With every step, I prayed that things were different. I wished that I had known you when I was not yet broken for I know I could have loved you better than everyone else. I promised myself that I was to enjoy every minute that I get to spend with you - this was what I am being given and this was what I will gratefully take. We could have walked side by side for a long time if only you believed in love; if only you had considered what we had; if only you had given us a chance.
If only.
I looked at you one more time and you smiled. The image that I saw was that of someone I still considered special; someone I can still see myself having long walks with in the future; someone I can still love. I took one final look at you and said goodbye. With me is the memory of our walk home - something I will always remember...
... Until the day we get to walk again.
To you, thank you for everything. See you again soon.
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how sweet. :D
for once, i am speechless. ang hirap ng buhay pag komplikado. i guess if life gives u lemons, don't just make lemonade. hanap ka ng tequila at asin. hehe
isang malaking AAAAAHM sa comment ni CB hahahahaha
naka-relate ako, ang ganda ng post mo.
sad but true...
hi there... just a new follower of this site.. i just found your blog a couple of weeks ago and started reading it.. this is really a great site. i can relate with your ideas... maybe you know what i mean. anyways, i just created my new blog today... honestly, i got inspired with your blog. so i decided to start my own "real" blog.. just as a way of expressing myself...like you do...
sigh...
i remembered the beach and our own walk...
i miss him...
I imagine you reading your entry to me in that sweet, soft tristan voice. If only I was the guy you spent the walk with... Hayyyyyyy...
@CB bakit ka speechless? hahaha
@Yj maintrigang AAAAAHM ba yan?
@cronwell salamat :)
@im real thanks for the kind words... i hope you find whatever you are looking for online. goodluck. :) by the way, let me just send you a note offline, we might have something more in common than the need to write. *wink*
@the geek i miss him too. :)
@Carrie di ko agad napansin ang comment mo at napatumbling ako sa nabasa ko. salamat. you're making me blush. :P
gusto ko rin mag walk. pero ewan nalungkot ako sa post na to ;-(
speechless ako kasi... secret! hehe
i'll really try hard and make your followers a hundred before you leave :-p xoxo
tara mag-walking walking tayo ahihih
geee... sometimes your postings really makes me wanna cry. gud bye old life...
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