Here's the thing - I am sorry.
Just to make it clear - never will I commit suicide. And even if I was considering the real thing, I will never blog about it. Geez, that would be tantamount to saying "please stop me." and THAT would be way pathetic. I was just thinking of closing down Tristan Tales... please stop me? LOL.
When I first started blogging, I just wanted a place where I could be real and share my stories. I never expected that this blog would occupy a large part of my life. It is addicting and it has allowed me to live in a parallel universe without leaving my desk. But, in the last few days, I had questioned the reason for Tristan Tales' existence. No, this is not about you (me sings, "you're so vain, you probably think this blog is about you... you're so vain!!"), it's about something else. So I planned on blogicide.
But then I received several emails, notes, messages from some of you that really warmed my heart. I never realized that I was that uhmmm... inspirational (move over Jaime Rivera!). I also learned that for some, reading this site, has become a therapy of sorts. It seems that they see my life as an online soap opera that they can sometimes relate to and, occasionally, take lessons from. Quite oddly, and this I say with caution, some even base their happiness on how miserable I turn out to be. Note to self: make these people suffer by being extremely happy, successful and fucked up (in a very good way). A few handful have just made a habit of visiting every so often, okay okay, daily to check on me - they're mostly my friends. Needless to say, I never realized that this small space in the online universe can hold so much purpose after all.
So I am keeping it.
... and I am sure my one hundred and six public followers would prefer that I keep it that way.
Thanks again guys.
Love lots, T
3 stamps:
glad that you decided to stay.
i know you still have a lot of stories to share.
now, there is no reason for you to hold back, t...
What makes your blog appealing are your struggles. We feel your pain and the emotional roller coasters you are going through are the same roller coasters we find ourselves stuck in. Strange as it may seem but your courage and determination to go past your cycle inspires others to do the same.
Happiness maybe a long trek, but the journey will be half as perilous when companions are there to keep you amused.
Speaking for the 106 bloggers who follow you, thank you for staying.
I never really took your "suicide" note seriously, as in taking your life. You like life too much.
Plus, I've been blogging for 5 years and have 107 followers. You already have 106, and that's with intermittent pauses in blogging! Are you really sure of walking away from all that adoration? Jamie Rivera has already been pushed aside, sis. =)
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