The Beginning

A lot has happened from the first night we established contact. We've spent a good amount of time getting to know each other. We've made good progress but, a lot has yet to be done.

By now, you must have probably noticed how careful I have been with my heart. I have played my cards close to my chest for fear of a premature reveal - and anything premature is not good, I tell you. If you have also been diligently reading me, as you have claimed, you would have known that I, and I am actually so tired of saying this, have been badly broken. I cannot bear to go through the whole drama again. My heart isn't as strong as it used to be. Or maybe it is but regardless, I still don't want the pain. I cannot afford a heartbreak on the side so please understand, I am fragile. Haha.

But seriously, in my last few attempts at relationships, I have learned that there is really no easy way to love - no such thing as an overnight love marinade. So I am glad that we have both decided to take things slow not only for obvious reasons - distance, different lifestyles, your girlfriend (and just so it's clear, ayokong maging kabit) - but also because we both need to figure out if this is really what we want; if this is what is right for us. Good thing is that, soon, we will both find this out for ourselves.

I am happy that you're very persistent even though hindi naman talaga ako kailangan ligawan eh dahil hindi naman ako babae (and for the record, I never want to be one). I am happy that you manage to find the time, in between your very busy professional and social schedule, to check up on me in the strangest of ways. Kahit na pa-cute ka lang naman lagi. I am thankful that you are mature enough to accept certain realities. Uy, palakpak tenga. I am excited that, in a few week's time, we will finally meet - that you actually have the balls to buy a ticket and see me on this side of the world. And finally, I am glad to know that someone actually cares for someone as divine (and difficult) as me. Haha. I sincerely appreciate your efforts, dagdagan mo pa!

I, probably much like you, am still uncertain where all of this is leading to but, I am now allowing myself to experience life again. And if what we have now will take us somewhere even remotely close to a happily ever after, then any risk of getting hurt again may just as well still be well worth it in the end. So hold on tight, this post marks the beginning of our story.

Congratulations and welcome to Tristan Tales.