I know disappointed well. I understand frustrated. I am familiar with lost and confused. I recognize anxious. I have felt homesick. I know sad and lonely. I have been bitter, discouraged, disheartened. I know how dismal feels like and dreary even. I recognize upset. Oh and yes, I have been blue. But, this is the probably the first time I am meeting depressed. It's amazing!
It feels a little sad and lonely with a pinch of frustrated and disappointed. A dash of helplessness also makes wonders. And yes, upset and empty guarantee that it's special. Depression is like a cocktail of negativity that's mixed perfectly. So perfect that it has the power to make you cry. I cry for no reason other than I do not really know what I am going through. Tears flow and they keep on flowing. I can feel my heart tighten, my lungs compress. It feels like I can't breathe.
And so I blog. I blog to let it all out - with the hope that words would make it all go away. But, it doesn't. At best, the words help alleviate the sadness but, like a trained stalker, depression secretly lurks, waiting for the next opportune time to strike again.
No, I do not wish to alarm anyone. I am perfectly fine, a little depressed but fine, nonetheless. It just feels good to know what the mind and heart are capable of experiencing - I now know how this demon feels like and I can take it from here.
I have already stopped crying. I cannot afford to have red eyes today - they do not go well with my purple tie. And if only for this, I know I'd have to get over this, in
5, 4, 3, 2, 1.
Done.
6 stamps:
wear a red tie instead. hehe.
get un-depressed soon :)
We've known each other beyond blogspace.
Kahit minsan hindi mo sabihin, I know when you're distressed.
I know you're strong. But we can let our guard down sometimes and reveal that we're capable of being weak too.
Cheers.
may mga moments talaga na darating sa atin 'yan. you'll be ok, tristan pa
what's with november anyway?! Seems like most of the blogs i've read so far features a rollercoaster of emotions.
Here, lemme give you a hug...
hugs for tristan!!!
@Allan, yes, red ties work and red shoes. haha.
@Galen @the curiouscat @Darc Diarist salamat :)
@iurico ewan ko, contagious ata e. lol.
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