I just cant force myself to do it anymore. Since I moved to the city over the weekend, I have received at least fifty emails from fifty different people asking me to hook up. I now think that my profile and my lovely picture works. Haha. I think I may have responded to 10 just because they were so irresistable. All of them probably thought that it would work out and that they could get a piece of this Asian ass. *Happy Thoughts* But, I have decided to postpone all meet ups until I am certain of something - that yes, I have indeed changed.
There were several blacks with humongous dickies. A few jocks whom I know could tickle my fancy. A handful Europeans boys who are so tempting. And even a Russian/Arab guy who looks so godly. But, every night, for the last three nights, I just find myself on my balcony, with a stick of Frost, looking at the city below me asking myself one thing: is this the life I want?
Turning in, I know I still do not have the answers. I just know these: that I want peace, peace of mind and yes world peace. I want to go home at night knowing fully well that someone's waiting for me. I want to know that at end of each day, no matter how shitty it has been, that I will never feel alone. I just need someone to talk to. I need someone who could make feel alive; make me laugh, make me cry, make me horny. I need someone who could satisfy my soul and keep me grounded. I need someone who could keep the hope alive.
Maybe it's just me and the weather. Or perhaps, the changes in the season. Maybe it's me turning another year older in a few weeks. Or maybe it's me ready to leave my old life behind for something real. Maybe, I just have too much drama in my life. Maybe I just need to really get laid again. Or maybe, I just need to find myself a gorgeous naked maid.
On The Eve Of
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i love how.....existential you are in this post. i think i need some water guns. lol
nakanaks. in demand ang asian ass lol. or maybe you're just really in-demand with your uber oozing sex-appeal hehehe. are you still coming home this summer? we miss you daddy tristan :D
HUGS. im definitely voting on the maid idea.
i can totally relate to this. at this point in my life, im turning 30 this year, i am looking for a real relationship as well.
goodluck on your journey dude. i hope you find your fulfillment soon.
i go for the naked maid idea! :)
baka walang thrill because it's so accessible already :D
Kung ako yun, I won't stay at home. If those guys are so hot malamang I'd meet them up. saka na ako magtatanong ng "Is this the life I want?" pagkatapos ng fuckfest. Hahaha.
on CL? ingats...
Hi sis. Tama lang na alam mo ang gusto sa buhay - ang maging kabiyak at hindi bibiyakin lang. Hanga ako sa sensibilidad mo. Pero, paminsan-minsan, maglaro ka rin. :)
P.S., penge ng Africanong mola. LOL
I know exactly how you feel.. before after every hook up.. after you have satisfied your bodily cravings.. You still feel.. empty.. :)
Love and a sense of belongingness is what you are looking for kuya.. :)
s.a.d
seasonal affective disorder, i ddnt know that this can make u forego sex too. hehe.
bakit wala ung nauna kong comment?! Hehe
Naku, ganyan na ganyan na din mga napapagnilay-nilayan ko lately.
Tumatanda na ba tayo?!
frost=frigid. swing by SG. mainit dito kelangan mo i-thaw teh!
@Herbs I'll be home by end Feb. Round up the coffee babies na!
@Jay See thanks and goodluck to you too.
@Darc gusto mo mag-apply?
@Rygel maybe.
@iambrew pede pede
@cranz no, not CL... something else.
@Carrie I lurve the way you put it. Bibiyakin vs Kabiyak. LOL
@Dhon you betcha
@Johne Dale more like, conscience
@iurico ay naku, tumatanda na nga tayo... pakasal na tayo... :)
@MkSurf8 I just might. :)
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