Just A Thought

The world always has a way of telling us when the right time has come to do something. It is often up to us to recognize the signs and take the first steps forward. If we fail to do so, these things will forever remain at the back of our heads, often appearing in the most obscure of times. I have learned that we just cannot run away from everything all the time.

You may have never noticed this but, not too long ago, I decided to run away from everything, too. I am a closet-escapist, I know, and sometimes, I wonder what could have happened if I had stayed on. But, I chose to love myself a bit more and run - much like how you liked to do things. I did not regret doing so.

But, your memory lingers on. There are days when I still recall what had happened in the few magical days and nights that we were connected. Sadly, there would be days, much like today, when I would find myself lost amidst the confusion that this world brings - these would be the days when I look for you and you're not around. I would then find myself blocking off my memories of you with another layer of reality - with the hope that this extra layer would be strong enough to buy me a few more days of courage. But, that's just all there is to it - another layer of self-denial and a few more days of not thinking about you.

I am tired of running away. I am ready to end this.